Be a Pursuer

I have realized something about myself. I ask God to send people my way or to show me who could use an encouraging word or learn about Jesus. Don't get me wrong, those things are fine and dandy. The problem is with me expecting him to be my genie and "poof" those people just appear! Not only that, I expect them to be wide open and ready to hear from me.

Unfortunately, that's not how it works most of the time. It's up to me to get uncomfortable and to accept that not everyone is going to have an open heart right away. I fully believe that if you have someone on your heart that he is and will work on the other person though. It's hard. It's disheartening. It's frustrating. But that's LOVE! It's choosing to pursue others regardless of the hard and uncomfortable.

Jesus pursues me on my best days and more so on my worst days. He pursues you, too, even if you don't know it right now. When you pursue Him back, He will bear fruit in you (producing in you what you are designed to produce) that will equip you to pursue others, people that are already His that just need encouragement and the others He longs to have a relationship with.

Be a pursuer.

I love connecting with you! Share in the comments how you actively pursue others. Do you have a special gesture you make? Is there a phrase you like to use when out and about? Maybe you don't have a specific thing you like to do. Or maybe there's something that holds you back. 

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An Unexpected Joy in Waiting on God

I went shopping for home decor with a friend the other night and found some curtains that I loved, but decided to hold off until talking with Michael. We do a monthly budget and had not talked about it yet. After we talked, I went back to get them and they were gone. I ordered them online, but there was quite a bit of irritation there because I wanted them NOW. 

I am starting to see that I allow my heart to surrender to instant gratification way more than I should. Why? I think a big reason is that our American culture as a whole is about instant gratification. We want the next quick fix that we think will bring us joy - Starbucks, weight loss pill, FB likes, and the list would go on for miles. 

The Bible shows us that joy and satisfaction are not always immediate. Jesus suffered and died on the cross to bring eternal joy to a hopeless and dying world. It brings him joy now when someone accepts him or when love is shown, but I'm sure suffering was not enjoyable. We too will have to take up crosses and deal with things that inconvenience us, but joy will be on the other side. I appreciate my curtains more because I had to wait on them. 

In the hard stuff, don't seek instant gratification. Think about the joy on the other side of your small crosses and inconveniences - just like Jesus saw salvation on the other side of his suffering. When we say no to instant gratification and look to Jesus, we will find the hard stuff more bearable and you'll see that there is true joy on the other side. THAT is so much better than any set of curtains I try to immediately get my hands on.

You Are A Chosen Light

In the middle of 2013, during my morning quiet time, God put a desire in my heart to start growing our family. That vision was confirmed when I shared this with my husband and he said, "Okay". There was no resistance at all. I thought that since God put the desire in my heart and my husband was on board that we'd be pregnant in a month or so. I just knew it'd be soon. Fast forward 6 months later, I pushed for tests because my body wasn't acting right and I knew more was going on than the effects of coming off of birth control. I finally was able to get a diagnosis from an endocrinologist, that specializes in infertility, that I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS). I was told that there was a very slim chance that I'd be able to conceive without the help of medical intervention. While I am so thankful for doctors and medicine, I knew that wasn't the path that God wanted me to take. This was a trial to test and grow my faith. I drove home from that appointment in tears and feeling sorry for myself, but the next day I was angry. I was mad at me for not educating myself more.

That experience started my new journey as an online health and fitness coach to heal my own body and to coach other women battling PCOS. I did that for 3 years and I truly believe it was where I needed to be during that time. God not only used that experience to teach me how to heal my body, he taught me how to heal my mind. I discovered unpleasant things about myself that I didn't even realize were a problem until that venture. Through God's grace and lifestyle changes, I was able to conceive our precious baby boy about 2 years after he planted that desire in my heart. We now have a healthy 1-year-old. 

I felt God stirring in my heart while I was pregnant to start sharing more about him and began struggling to find joy in my MLM business. My justification was that it was just time to move on from that company and so I joined another MLM company for a few months. It took me doing that to realize that chapter of my life had come to a close, which leads me to here and now.

I have put off sharing this for several weeks because of being unclear about exactly what I need to be doing. And to be totally truthful, I'm still not clear. I have prayed A LOT and my answer is to walk in faith just like I did when I wanted my son so badly. I can tell you that I have a small glimpse of what I need to be doing and that's to share Jesus. Life is hard and there's a constant battle of following God's truth and the world's "truth". As wives and moms, it's so easy to get caught up in not feeling good enough or like we're not doing enough. We experience guilt, self-sabotage, insecurity, self-resistance to show who we really are and how we really feel, and pressure to do it all and still have energy left in the evenings for our kids and husbands. You aren't alone and that's why I have created this blog and my FB community, Chosen Light. I came up with that name because:

A. You are chosen by God. Ephesians 1:4 Even before he made the world, God loved us and chose us in Christ to be holy and without fault in his eyes.
B. You are meant to be a light for him. Matthew 5:16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, so that they may see your good works and give glory to your Father who is in heaven.

From the very moment you were formed in the womb, you had purpose. Over time, that purpose can become clouded with what the world tells you and through the perspectives you gain based on your own experiences. If I can help even one person break through a wall that keeps them from shining like their meant to shine, this whole thing will be worth it.

I hope to see you in Chosen Light